Time brings longing and
distress for the missing, gone
into the wild.
To the seeker comes treasure
and the quest brings fulfillment.
Time brings longing and
distress for the missing, gone
into the wild.
To the seeker comes treasure
and the quest brings fulfillment.
Time lost to the sun,
the world seems warprd by ancent
glass and small quivers.
Memories rush to fill
life’s desertion to the sand.
Life in the dark shines,
but a life in hot light thirsts,
Longing under heat,
and visions of moist vistas,
turned to dust on inspection.
Light from the fire
of the golden apple seed
planted in ripe fields
on the flood plains fertilized
and fed from the river Styx.
Dancing with delirium,
Elysian fields soured,
Dreams of vile filth,
Deconstructions waking eye,
Sophia held by thick chains;
Born from the lotus,
and fathered by the logos,
she swam in waters
of the ethereal joy,
beached by creations left hand.
On the silver sands,
her spirit sings to the sky,
her being inspires,
born to give the world beauty,
born to give the world sorrow.
Rage filled pale gray eyes
and his hate brought destruction,
To the desert towns,
Each step on the trail grows sage,
’till the sun sets and life starts.
But in the empty
waists and nightmare visages
of the deep visions
lost in the stars of heaven,
falling into reborn souls . . .
The lost are now found;
belonging to forgotten
badlands of lost youth,
You are all remembered beings,
Joined by violence of the minds.
Before pale gray eyes,
Stands the heart of the desert,
dust blown and barren,
but holding the hidden life,
in the shade of a small stone.
Screams from inside
and the ice melts
with the heat of terror,
and turmoil of the mind
bringing flashes and sparks
to the spinning world,
and lost thoughts.
A hidden wonder,
when the fire springs into vision,
the spirit lifts above,
then falls,
slamming the body in a fit,
and visions consume,
giving birth to the word,
and falling astral peaches.
To the world,
understanding lacks,
only to crush the heart,
but inspire the word,
given from the divine Sophia,
that light
of the divine.
“Good evening fine folk of the south desert, and honest men of the tilled earth. As you know, one night a week we have our very special performer. You all know her. You all lust for her, in your secret dreams. To all our delights . . . welcome our desert queen . . . Ximena Aljibe.”
The screams and yells of welcome from the citizens of the Red Saloon was heard throughout the town, but when she entered the balcony, the people quieted. With her first step the piano began and in her third step down the tall stares she began the song. She sang and she weaved her way down the wooden steps. Each step was three beats of a heart, but to the eager audience, it seemed like ten-thousand.
She walked with confidence, but in her heart sat a stone. From her voice came her passions and songs of lust that burned in the obsessed; the crowded joint responded. In her dance was the dance of the succubus, movements brought radiance, but from around came dark desires seething with lust; one will pay later . . . so will she.
She jumped and sat on the edge of the fine oak bar, the crowds gathered around, lust filled their loins, desire in minds, and she sang to the power of melancholy delight, salacious sin, and delightful devilry. She knew the highest bidder wold take her. After the show gold would be her only delight, and she would swim in a yellow lake.
On the other side, leaning in a corner, only a reflection in the mirror from behind the bar, stood a man who did not lust. A dark man whose soul reflected pain like Ximena’s brought desire. He stared with eyes of grey steel, and for a moment, his stare made the angel voice quiver; but only the ears of the dark man heard; it made him smirk.
The song she sang continued and slowly the melody focused only on the dark stranger and he felt the sting of green eyes in the hearts of the mob. His face was stone and that stung her. In her inner most thoughts she was already in love, her conscious mind hoped he would pay this evening. Her eyes to his, and when love gets brought in, the walls will invariably fall. So dark man of the dusty planes stood like a pillar of salt, watching Ximena bring the audience to near climax . . .
Then stop.
The song of Ximena Aljibe had finished. She vanished to her room in the tobacco filled air, reading herself for the high bidder, desire against hope, for her dark man.
But them old devils are at it again; the dark man did not come, but the rancher Stevens stood at the door, his toothy and droopy smile and drool at his lips corner and glazed eyes leered.
Stevens tossed the gold too her feet.
For the first time, since her innocence was sold for the yellow metal, she cried. This angered the rancher. He fucked harder, but Ximena learned, long time past, to embrace the pain and let it fill her, listen to the hurting to drown out the cause.
The first thing she remembered, since going away, was the quiet night. Stevens was gone; left sometime in her delirium. She fixed her-self, scrubbing the filth away, removing the sickness outside. But the inner sickness was rising, and refusing to be submerged again. What had the dark man done to her. His steel eyes tore through her like hot lead through flesh.
And that’s when the shots came. From the street below her window they rang; uncountable blasts, with a scream of rage, sounding like the cumming of Stevens. She ran to the window and in her sight was the rancher, sprawled on the dusty street, above him was the dark man, his double colts smoking but still aimed at the fallen face.
And the dark man looked to Ximena Aljibe’s window, steel eyes a weapon. He looked down to dieing man, and fired the double rounds. From Stevens face rose crimson mist mixing with grey smoke.
Without looking, the one in the dark duster walk off, not a care for those that stood around. Not heeding the woman in the window.
On this great western Wednesday we start with a haiku, yes a western Haiku, get over it . . .
Drifting in the Sun
On dry lakes in high deserts,
The dust devils spin.
Another post soon: The Song of Ximena Aljibe
A Follow-up to: Three Tanka of Silent Sins
Forbidden dreams found,
Among the thunder of waves,
and the silent stars,
On a night that’s remembered
for the vices of the night.
How none remember,
but me, shining starlit eyes,
because none have seen,
the rebirth of joy and art,
In an old and lonely heart.
Fulfillment brings art,
Longing brings inspiration,
the drink brings chaos,
A theater dance Saturdays,
Eris, meet my mother Nyx.